ACTIVIST AMBIVALENCE
( CAPPIE, COMMIE, FASCIST TOOL?


OR SHOULD I JUST GO BACK TO SCHOOL?)

WHAT can we activists really do to improve the current condition of things? JUST PLOW ON AHEAD with every spunky kind of activism we can think of short of bombings! YES. Non-violent protest, like Gandhi dreamt up. IT WILL WORK! Pretend you're Gandhi sitting on the dirt thinking 'jeez, how great would it be without the Brits here soaking us dry.' And do what he did. Every damn thing he could think of, inspiring others to join him, he was a ONE MAN BAND. This little Indian, not fourfeet nine, you could put your fingers around two of his wrists, except I wouldn't try it. The guy was FEISTY. He had attitude or something. He knew he was right. And he knew he could do it if he stuck to his guns. CINDY SHEEHAN was that way. She totally hammered Bush Jr into the ground over the genocide on both sides in the Iraq war. Kucinich and Ron Paul have tried hard thru being in Congress and Perot before him but then some civilian comes along and Craa--aack, he hits one out of the ballpark. So let that be you.

Remember this witty little quote  --- The Activists Creed: "We the willing, led by the unknowing, are doing the impossible for the ungrateful. And we have done so much, for so long, with so little, that we are now qualified to do anything,--- with nothing."

 How wonderfully this quote catches the amount of sweat on our foreheads, drool on our chins as we concentrate on SHAPING THE FUTURE. And also the seeming futility of the work we do to "save humanity" --- with the multiplicity of researched articles we create for web sites, the chat rooms we enter to convince, convert and alert --the newsletters we create and send out on Enron, The Oligarch Gov deliberately letting 9-11 happen so they could get back in Afghanistan, Energy-profiteering, Ecology and the danger of petroleum to our air, lungs, babies.

The research located, found, saved to cache ---the files that we assiduously dredge up from the Internet and rewrite to make easily understood by all, then send to bright minds and even to other activists in this huge, unofficial Paul Revere society that the Internet has become, is like a daily spiritual service that the activist does because he sees the reality, the precariously perched planet!

The effort activists make is so great, that if we spent it in any other way than FIGHTING the power hierarchy --- we could possibly (this is the arguable crux) JOIN the planetary overlords in the thrombosis of money making that's OUT THERE and be so very OK that we could stop whining and sniveling about how they're dirtying the air (we could get HEPA FILTERS on huge vented air purification systems,) how they're raising the price of gas, fuel and electricity prices a l00% at each lurch...

We activists have sharpened our pencils, wits and tongues for WAR, paid ISPís to be our NSA/ CIA and with the Internet, informed ourselves, shared knowledge, conspired to picket and affect public opinion by affecting it, by burying our noggins in research at web sites then sending said info around the planet as an act of secret and sacred WAR.

What long hours have we spent in our chair before PCís that might better be spent in gainful employment, hmmm? Maybe joining city hall is better than fighting it. Am I a Ďdevil of doubtí when I say that? I know there are these legends of the war that activists like us caused actual social change once... back in the 30ís when we achieved the Social Security Administration and Welfare, but the big daddies really have the planet WIRED now. Itís an internatíl community headed by a needle sharp POINT (one single man) way at the top like a Nazi hierarchy and below him, henchmen who are just taking orders.

I'm betting the CIA/ NSA/ FBI and SAIC (that's the web police) have all our numbers and look down from on high and laugh ĎNo chance these puny guys will stop US.í We are going to seize control of the entire planet and get rid of anyone who isn't a lubricant to our humming machine. Useless eaters, I believe they are called by the New World Order.

Is there a flaw in thinking that the international business community on the grand scale can EVER work for the little man? Can they train every last one of us to be a handsomely paid cog? THEY, the big guys, have the entire world wired so that it most economically renders all the fat into their hands.

What's alarming is that they are working globally and locally. We idiots in hometown USA are not even good at being LOCAL. We haven't an ounce of control over anything in our own communities. Not a POTHOLE are we able to fix. We have no way to signal OUR local leaders to see to our homeless, our jobless, our uneducated children, our lack of heat for geriatrics, our closed factories that moved to Salvador because not on a local level, not on even a natíl level is anything going to be done for anyone in our hometown. NOBODY on top has any affiliation to OUR TOWN. And if the order doesn't come from ON TOP in this new society, itís not coming.

Steel will be made in Latin America, Cotton sheets woven in Africa because there, raw materials, natural  resources, energy and labor are all cheap. Hence our blue collar class workers will be jobless, our factories closed while the third world economy is sent into inflationary tilt from a few people working in factories.

Workers here have to learn another profession. Why? Cuz the WTO sez so. They don't intend to leave a denim overall job in the country. Maybe a few computer programming jobs or something but not blue collar labor.

And now that the welfare has dried up in the Gobi of the Millennium, our ex steelworkers will be hijacking food trucks at the outside of town and leaping the fence into our gardens to bag the oranges, eat the plums, then the poodle and parakeet.

In PRIMARY COLORS, a flick you have to see, (rent it,) "Clinton" (played by Travolta) tells us were going to be jobless if we donít upgrade and learn to do 'first world' jobs. The other kind (blue collar, I guess he meant,) were exported to the third world where the WTO sez they belong.

'GLOBALISM' they call it and it means NAFTA and GATT and that the GLOBAL ELITE runs the world and they will choose which countries get factories and they didn't choose us, and that now we all have to go back to school. He tells it to an AFL/CIO bunch of unemployed factory workers. Car workers, I think it was and they applaud the news that in their mid 30s they have to start over, hit the books again. Well, it was a mooooovie, guys.

See, itís so damn hopeless. And the more we hate the planetary overlords, the more we subtract ourselves from the widget they are building, The NEW WORLD and probably the farther down stream weíll end up shipwrecked on its future shore so I suppose I should close up shop and take Novell Networking classes and go get an honest job.

But some tiger instinct in me says Ďhate what the rich guys do to you, making you a cog, alienated labor and all. Mistrust it, despise it, hate them for plotting their economic convenience,í they who run around in Bentleys and dine on Caviar at the Ritz. However, I recognize the scent of jealousy on my caviar free breath.

My stupid side says just relax, love them that do you evil, trust in Him that runneth the show. He will fix it. God will fix it all. The Planetary Overlords are really a personified version of God. They will make a cozy world. Milton Friedman said so. Is this how people fall asleep and dream the most beautifully just when theyíre freezing to death in the snow? Dying in a deceptively warm dream of cozy safety? GET UP AND RUN, FIGHT THEM, the cagey old war scarred internet warriors tell me. And theyíre political activists, they should KNOW. Maybe God manifesting on earth as a political institution of absolute purity is a Hegelian fuckiní pipe dream. Is it?

I am answered by the voice of Karl Marx, "God is a seduction rigged by the rich to tame the poor, and put them to sleep."

So as you can see, Iím hearing voices. Iím having an inner conflict, here. I distrust my own hatred of the nazi hierarchy as Buddhism teaches that all hatred is to be avoided. All rebellion too --- the original sin of Lucifer. Rebellion is futile, maybe even morally objectionable. Rebellion is a kind of sign of our distrust in our loving Father. The perfect son of a devoted father recognizes all duress as a blessing, all challenges as gifts, all lack as a badge not of LACK OF APTITUDE, but lack of self recognition of Godhood. We are able. Just clutzy. We are GODS and live in a dream created by a loving God-Father.

See, my real father on earth, Big Al, is such a cheatiní shit sonovabitch that I think Iím only an anarchist cuz Iíd shoot him if I could. My own father. And at least TWO of my Ďex's.í Shoot them too. Maybe three of my sons too. AND DEFINITELY the main BOYFRIEND. Right through the eyes. Although, there are two other targets I might shoot between...

So, see, Iím just an angry lady. My politics should immediately be suspect. Maybe Marx, Trotsky and Lenin were angry too. Maybe my problems with POLITICS are that I hate MEN and my problems with MEN are why Iím an anarchist. I might also own up to having some serious authority figure problems.

SO, how about you guys? Should we launder our gall, shrink our adrenals and dry out our anger hormones up with a tantrum yoga session before we take up the pen? And when Iím dry-cleaned, should I just go work at the bank? Or trust in my Holy Father, freeze, die and go to heaven?

I mean I have an oppressive, threatening landlady, who breaks laws with impunity because the rental board changed things around so horribly, favoring landlords. My slumlord is currently raising the rent 11% at a swack, I have no heat, rent is way over my head and I am jobless. My son went to Europe on a dime, no money for food or hotels, got schitzy, set fire to a shed at work when he returned and now is being dosed with chemicals at a state mental hospital. I canít get him out as arson is against the law even if you're nuts. Would have been 1/2 year if he'd pled guilty but NOT GUILTY by reason of insanity which his PUBLIC DEFENDER insisted on, got him ELEVEN YEARS in a MAD HOUSE!  Now the state of California has a felony HOLD on him. They think heís Kozynski.

I have every reason to be an anarchist. Why does my hand tremble as I pronounce the word R)EVOLUTION? What was it called in l984 when you got your politics rearranged? Some sort of cerebral disk wipe? You saw it in CLOCKWORK ORANGE, an old Kubrick film that you should rent where they reprogram delinquents by taping their eyes open and giving them a slide show of aversion therapy combined with electric shock so they learn to hate the murder they previously embraced. Can I apply for that? And just stick some Ďtrade techí in there instead. Novell will do.
 

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